Call it the Winter Blues, the January Blahs, or whatever you want, but I don’t do well this time of year. I can’t explain why, but there’s something about the sun setting early that makes me want to curl up with my computer, stay inside and avoid everything. I always get sad during the winter and then I also remain sad throughout the rest of the year as well.
I know it’s the most wonderful time of the year for some people. They get excited about Christmas presents and the sparkling snow and the whole romance of the season, but not me. I’m a little bit different. I can’t help but get sad when it’s 23 degrees outside, although I’m also sad when it’s any other temperature. This is just a weird thing about me that I can’t explain.
Every year, as soon as December rolls around, everything gets harder. Suddenly I get the urge to settle with people I don’t even like just so I can have someone around, I’m eating worse foods like plain spaghetti with salt and I’m listening to Fleetwood Mac’s Rumours on repeat because it’s the only album that can make me feel anything. It’s just what the wintertime does to me! Although I continue to be this way for the rest of the year as well, and there’s basically no time of the year when I’m not like this.
However, the worst part about winter to me is having to commute an hour to and from work in the cold. I don’t feel any motivation whatsoever to put on my puffer coat in the morning and trek over to my job at Eataly. And in summer, fall, and spring I continue feeling this unmotivated about going to work. For example, I also hate having to put on my shorts and sunglasses to go to my job when it’s nice out.
Winter is just not for me. And essentially, there’s no time of the year that pleases me. Isn’t that interesting?
It’s hard having winter and general depression. I’ve had to cancel on my friend Courtney for her January birthday dinner the last eight years in a row because I was too busy lying face down on the ground in my room, doing and feeling nothing. I also haven’t been to any social function at any time of year in years.
But I’m sure I’d be even more likely to skip things in the winter! Because like I said, my just mood just tanks this time of year, and all other times of the year too. I wish I knew what it was about the winter and all the other seasons that does this to me.